Friday, February 1, 2013

Fear Is Real, But There Is Beauty

My Five Minute Friday on: Afraid

I poured my heart out on the page. I closed my eyes and transported myself back in time. I asked myself questions. I analyzed my actions.

And somehow I found words. No, I found my voice.

We puttered and changed and revised.

And there it was — attached to that email. The one that said, "yes, it's ready."

I clicked send and in a flash it was gone. Left in its wake, fear. Dread.

No going back now.

I had written a guest post for a friend's blog which described my story, dealing and healing from childhood sexual abuse.

I knew it was time. It was something I wanted to do. I chose to share it.

But once the email was sent I wanted to suck it all back in. Why?

I was afraid.

How would people react? Would they react? Would people understand?

It was posted the next day. I didn't die. And no one pointed fingers.

In the weeks to follow, a series of posts detailing my honest feelings and how God was healing me.

The fear is real, but there is beauty.

God nudged me to share my story when I was ready. He covered my fears with peace and assurance. An assurance that by vulnerably laying my heart bare, He would bless and encourage others.
We can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good. (Romans 8:28, The Message)


Linking today with Lisa-Jo…
Five Minute Friday

7 comments:

Lisa B...TheTadey said...

I too have written very honestly about things in my past. I understand that fear. I applaud your courage. I find blogging it is helpful for me. I pray that you find it healing for you too.

Christy said...

Thank you, Lisa! It's been worth it in ways I couldn't have imagined.

BARBIE said...

I know that it must have taken a lot of courage to share your story, but I also know that so many will be helped because of it. Yes, there is beauty! Visiting from the 5 Minute Friday!

Jerralea said...

Glad you found the courage to share. Romans 8:28 is my life verse, because I do truly believe He will make something good out of everything that happens.

hsmominmo said...

Fear, Honesty, Beauty - yes, these! so glad you shared today.

Dolly@Soulstops said...

Dear Christy,

I just found your comment in my spam folder so I apologize for taking so long to visit your blog after you kindly left your URL for me - which I do appreciate :)

Wow, what courage to share your story, and to know that God gave you the peace...so encouraging...Cheering for you, and I am off to read your story, my brave one :)

Christy said...

Barbie: I appreciate your encouragement! Thanks for visiting!

Jerralea: Romans 8:28 is one of my favorite verses, as well. I have clanged to it many a time. Thank you for stopping by!

hsmominmo: I'm glad you could relate! Thanks for your comment!

Dolly: Thanks for saving me from spam! And thank you for coming by. I feel your encouragement!

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