Thursday, March 24, 2011
I've been feeling a little "tossed about" the past few weeks. Not necessarily anything specifically knocking me off balance, but just not feeling myself. I want to write on the blog but the words don't come. My time eaten away by the pressures of things that need to get done. And even in my rare moments of stillness, I'm terribly distracted. Has this ever happened to you?
If I were to articulate some of the highlights of the past few weeks I might like to tell you about my amazing son who has been courageously showing me that he's no longer a little boy. Naturally introverted and a cautious observer, he has been pushing through those walls and participating in ways that challenge his natural bent. That he is playing baseball for the first time ever, not knowing most of the nuances of the sport, but showing up to practice anyway, willing to try his best even though it was uncomfortable for him. That he was asked to be the Emcee for the K-3rd grade Town Meeting at school and he accepted, even though it meant he would have to lead the meeting and talk into a microphone in front of everyone. That he took me on a date, ordered the tomato pie, and without prompting took money out of his own bank and insisted he pay for it.
Can you tell I'm a proud Momma?
So as I stand with my head in the dark cloud, perhaps the best way to find the sun again is to remember all the beautiful blessings going on around me. The way my daughter takes my breath away when she smiles, how beautiful her delicate six year old voice is when she sings, how she dances around the house without a care in the world, and how she instinctively cares for others. I am so blessed!
And in the continuing journey of life that my husband and I are taking together, God has helped Adam turn a new corner as husband, father, and leader of this family. How overwhelmed I am in the new ways Adam is showing his love for me. In his willingness to try God is faithfully revealing to him what biblical leadership looks like (particularly through sermons like "Adam, Where Are You?" by Pastor John Piper) and it's redefining our marriage.
I often feel undeserving of this life I have, full of more blessings then I can speak of, and yet they are all mine! Thank you for your patience as I process through the things laying on my heart right now.
"Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. " LAMENTATIONS 3:22-23