My Five Minute Friday on: Nothing
I am trying to retrain myself. To stop putting so much value on earnings.
That somehow there is something I can always do to find favor.
All my strivings and hard work are not in vain and are filling a bank account somewhere that measures how much I'm worth.
But no matter how much I have done to please others or earn esteem, I always come up empty.
I cannot do enough.
I have wrestled with understanding love. Why wouldn't it fit into society's mold?
Why shouldn't I have to measure up? Be labeled a "success"? Earn the respect of my peers?
That means something…doesn't it?
But the other day, friends offered my family a gift. It was something unearned. And they had NO REASON to give it.
I racked my brain to figure out motive. To understand why they would offer this to us? There was NOTHING in it for them.
And then it overwhelmed me — this picture of God-love.
Someone gave me a gift I didn't deserve. A gift I didn't earn.
I find myself trying to earn it somehow. What can I do to repay them? How can return the favor?
The cross is more than this. A "you-did-not-have-to" kind of love that blows me away.
Because seriously, this kind of love doesn't happen everyday.
But maybe it should.
Not because of anything I've earned or done.
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