Wednesday, October 24, 2012
What Lies Ahead
It's the eve of attending my first blogger writer's conference and I'm asking that butterfly in the belly introverted question, why did I say I would go to this thing?
Back when the blossoms were just about to explode in their spring glory, I pushed the "purchase ticket" button on the Allume website. With my friend's reassuring voice on the other end of the telephone line, she was convinced we would have a great time and a positive experience. It's sort of a blur to me now. What made me decide to actually do it?
A conference full of Christian women, with a common interest in blog writing. Some names I knew, Ann Voskamp, Mary DeMuth, Lisa-Jo. They have become a familiar sight on my "follow" list. I visit their journals, their encouragements, their well-put prose and it feels like I know them.
Three years ago, when I first started this blog, it was out of curiosity. I had no idea I would ever stick with it or what it would become.
Like a winter cold, I caught "blogging" — or maybe it caught me?
Writing fills me and challenges. Deeply I think and examine myself and others in front of the backdrop of this world.
God reminds me where I have been when I write. And He encourages me and gives me hope about my future.
So I know that God wants me to write. And when I'm unsure, He nudges and whispers the words and I try desperately to stay out of His way.
Attending the Allume conference feels intimidating. But as I stir my bubbling soup, feet firmly planted in my stay-at-home Mom life (with both kids in school full-time), I wonder what God has in store for me there? And what this conference will teach me?
And when that question nags again, "Why did I say I would go to this thing?", I can be ever confident that just showing up will be a blessing and I am anxious to see what lies ahead.