Tamar's Redemption Tuesdays
How We Hurt, How We Heal
Desperate, I wanted to trust people.
I searched for acceptance and love from anyone who was willing to give it to me. Internally, I traded my trust for a guarantee – that I would never be hurt again. I jumped into relationships with everything I had. I clung to them, relied on them, looking for some security. I wanted to feel safe.
Like a teeter-totter, I swayed between depending on others for what I needed and relying on myself. I knew deep down I would get hurt, but I also knew not trusting anyone was impossible. So I remained skeptical, ready to step in to protect myself at any moment.
Marriage was a proving ground. Initially, the promised commitment felt safe. But it wasn’t long before it all started to fall a part.
Read more of this guest post at Tamar's Redemption…
This post led to a secondary series on God in Healing:
Looking for a Hero
Looking for Eden
Finding the Real Me
Previous posts on this topic:
I Am A Survivor — Christy's Voice Part 1 — Tamar's Redemption Tuesdays
Shame — Christy's Voice Part 2 — Tamar's Redemption Tuesdays
Shame On Me — December 7, 2010